diff --git a/.gitignore b/.gitignore index 25e911a17d9dfff8bf01bd66e4868215404512b5..e69de29bb2d1d6434b8b29ae775ad8c2e48c5391 100644 --- a/.gitignore +++ b/.gitignore @@ -1,2 +0,0 @@ -# Jetbrains -.idea/ \ No newline at end of file diff --git a/README.md b/README.md index 53fcb15bc1173b260dd8c425b30d673281a49335..4ea091c7f2b00d40da6f8670485e6ab1a349ffec 100644 --- a/README.md +++ b/README.md @@ -5,22 +5,6 @@ I have a feeling many English majors would be deeply offended. But that's okay, because most of this will probably be typed through tears anyways. -> I am a kitty cat, this is my kitty fat, it goes *pat pat pat* - -Jaxon was a ~~world~~ house-renowned drummer. - -## Nicknames - -* Jack -* Jax -* Jaxon-maxon (pudding and paxon) -* Stinker-dinker (this nickname was also given to my son) -* Jacko-macko -* Jackle-mackle(-more) -* Jackly-mackly-moe -* Action Jaxon -* Stinker-cat Jaxon -* Pitter-patter squitter-squatter (kitter-catter) ## The Beginning diff --git a/images/shower.jpg b/images/shower.jpg deleted file mode 100644 index 794176cbb627abeae019ac0769320bb1baf73d57..0000000000000000000000000000000000000000 Binary files a/images/shower.jpg and /dev/null differ diff --git a/journal/2020-04-06.md b/journal/2020-04-06.md index d30c15e5465748dbe6e88b15db0573ea60473dcf..423240ed343ac295655115696a3d0286591d4a7f 100644 --- a/journal/2020-04-06.md +++ b/journal/2020-04-06.md @@ -25,4 +25,11 @@ ![naps](../images/naps.jpg) When my wife returned home we both went out to his box and cried for him. Bennet didn't really understand, but he knew that Jaxon was sleeping and wouldn't get up. +The first night without Jaxon was not as hard as I thought, though I think it was mostly due to lingering shock and because I was very tired. +I slept facing his side of the bed, with my arm out as it always was. He was not there, but it was a slight comfort. +He would always get *so* jealous when I would face Nicole that I was very rarely able to do so. +Now I am able to, but I don't think I will be comfortable sleeping facing away from Jaxon's side for a few nights. + +Thankfully Brad slept down at my feet, so I was able to feel some cat-warmth, silly though it may sound. + [Day 1](2020-04-07.md) \ No newline at end of file diff --git a/journal/2020-04-07.md b/journal/2020-04-07.md index 549fb3d9341c682fcc2d85f56346fc90bd876f10..11a2811167edd340c186a0fd72a33cf8a4ec3321 100644 --- a/journal/2020-04-07.md +++ b/journal/2020-04-07.md @@ -1,12 +1,3 @@ -# Day 0 - Night - -The first night without Jaxon was not as hard as I thought, though I think it was mostly due to lingering shock and because I was very tired. -I slept facing his side of the bed, with my arm out as it always was. He was not there, but it was a slight comfort. -He would always get *so* jealous when I would face Nicole that I was very rarely able to do so. -Now I am able to, but I don't think I will be comfortable sleeping facing away from Jaxon's side for a few nights. - -Thankfully Brad slept down at my feet, so I was able to feel some cat-warmth, silly though it may sound. - # Day 1 Today was much harder than yesterday. There were many tears, talks of getting another cat, more tears because what I really wanted was Jaxon. diff --git a/journal/2020-04-08.md b/journal/2020-04-08.md deleted file mode 100644 index 163ffa2db83959906c1ad19cc4efcceafeec6bc3..0000000000000000000000000000000000000000 --- a/journal/2020-04-08.md +++ /dev/null @@ -1,17 +0,0 @@ -# Day 1 - Night - -The second night without Jaxon was harder than the first, but I guess I expected it would be. -Brad slept by my feet again, so that was some comfort, and my wife has been incredibly supportive. - -I slept facing my wife for a while, but woke up facing Jaxon's side. -He used to groom my hand until it was all clean, something I will miss for a long time to come. - -# Day 2 - -I cried plenty in the shower, remembering all the stupid things Jaxon would do. -I've added a list of [nicknames](../README.md#nicknames) to the front page, I'd like to remember as many as I can. - -He would always be *very* upset when I emerged from the shower with my scent gone. -Sometimes he would nap while waiting. - -![shower](../images/shower.jpg) \ No newline at end of file